WHEN YOU GET LOST IN YOUR DREAM
When you get sucked in your dreams, you forget who you are. You forget why you started.
The last days, weeks, and months have been crazy. My blog grew so much, I've learned new things on the business over the summer and implemented them. It's only been three months but the improvements and hard work are already paying off. It was such a fulfilment. Or at least it should be.
Instead, I found myself tired, sad, with no motivation. I scanned my social media posts and recent blog posts and very little of them have a touch of me. I've published many articles that are useful, many photos about my travels but almost none of them touched my heart.
I haven't been writing about how I feel. And it's now filling up inside me, eating the life out of me. A person who's very close to me even mentioned that I have not been writing about my actual travels and how I feel about it, I only work and work and work. Which is good for the business but not for me and the people around me.
Recently, a tragic incident happened and it made me realised how busy I have been. I was too busy to ask how my friends are, how busy I was to make a home phone call and say hi to my dad and my siblings. How occupied I was that I forgot to enjoy my life in a new city and country. How too little time I have to stop, look, and appreciate life. I was so busy chasing my dreams that I literally got lost in it. My goal in stepping up my game cost me memories I could have made and cherished forever. Even the person who I made the memory with eventually will be gone forever.
I got lost chasing my dreams and I forgot to stop, breath, and slow down. I forgot the small things that actually matter. That made me feel very sad, I Iet those little things slip away, little things that are more valuable.
Yesterday was Sunday. I didn't work. Instead, I went out for an early dinner, watched American football, ate too much chicken wings, drank beer, went home and watched a movie while drinking tea. I didn't check my email. And I felt a little better and energised, then I wrote this.
Now, I want to tell you that maybe you can stop, look, and appreciate your life and the people around you. Call home and ask how your family are and what's going on with their lives. Message a friend and see how they have been doing, any holiday plans? If there is a special person next to you, tell them how happy you are to have their presence. Or simply smile to a stranger. Lastly, treat yourself for a meal or an ice cream and tell yourself you are beautiful and lucky.